I am just watching the film Calendar Girls...
its silly really because I totally forgot that the husband had cancer.
And it is bringing back memories of seeing Emma in hospital.
I am crying not only for the character but for Emma also
Wednesday, 29 February 2012
Happy Leap Year Day
Its Leap Year Day the day when traditionally a woman can propose to a man!
It was 12 years ago today that I found out that I may be getting made redundant...
I did in the end...
...and the reason I remember the date so clearly was because we were told "thank you for coming in to work today on the only day that you dont get paid for". So what happens if you were to book the day off as a day holiday? I havent had the balls yet to find out ;o)
It was 12 years ago today that I found out that I may be getting made redundant...
I did in the end...
...and the reason I remember the date so clearly was because we were told "thank you for coming in to work today on the only day that you dont get paid for". So what happens if you were to book the day off as a day holiday? I havent had the balls yet to find out ;o)
Tuesday, 28 February 2012
rhyme time
At my local library they run Chelmsford Childrens Centres groups.
The group we went to this morning was Rhyme Time ;o)
The session that we were aiming for was 10am - we werent in time for that one so we caught the 11am session instead and got our places at 10.30 a good half hour before it started ;o)
The first thing thay did were hand out some toys...
...a teddy bear, a scarecrow, a bobbin and a spider!
one of the ladies (there were 2 of them) held in her had a picture of a teddy bear and the child who had the teddy bear then handed the toy back...
and we all did round and round the garden which I have previously tried to do with Evie - the olny area big enough to do it on at the moment is her tummy but then it doesnt givemuch room for "tickle you under there" ;o)
Then came a picture of a scarecrow and we sang Dingle Dangle Scarecrow
Then came a picture of a bobbin and we sang Wind the Bobbin Up
Then came a picture of a spider and we sang Incy Wincy Spider.
Then we sang the Wheels on the Bus.
Then we sang Twinkle Twinkle Little Star
Then the last song we sang was If your happy & you know it.
Even though Evie was too young to participate (and she slept through the whole thing) at least I have learnt some new songs to sing with her ;o)
On Thursday we are going to give Tots Time a go ;o)
The group we went to this morning was Rhyme Time ;o)
The session that we were aiming for was 10am - we werent in time for that one so we caught the 11am session instead and got our places at 10.30 a good half hour before it started ;o)
The first thing thay did were hand out some toys...
...a teddy bear, a scarecrow, a bobbin and a spider!
one of the ladies (there were 2 of them) held in her had a picture of a teddy bear and the child who had the teddy bear then handed the toy back...
and we all did round and round the garden which I have previously tried to do with Evie - the olny area big enough to do it on at the moment is her tummy but then it doesnt givemuch room for "tickle you under there" ;o)
Then came a picture of a scarecrow and we sang Dingle Dangle Scarecrow
Then came a picture of a bobbin and we sang Wind the Bobbin Up
Then came a picture of a spider and we sang Incy Wincy Spider.
Then we sang the Wheels on the Bus.
Then we sang Twinkle Twinkle Little Star
Then the last song we sang was If your happy & you know it.
Even though Evie was too young to participate (and she slept through the whole thing) at least I have learnt some new songs to sing with her ;o)
On Thursday we are going to give Tots Time a go ;o)
Sunday, 26 February 2012
Tuesday, 21 February 2012
saying our goodbyes
Yesterday was my friend Emmas funeral.
I had never been to a funeral before and it was really sad that the first one would end up being for my best friend.
When me and my friends would go up to see a show we would always end up getting lost looking for the theatre (despite having a "map" with us) so it was quite fitting that we were driving around the cemetery looking for the chapel...
...she would have been looking down laughing her head off ;o).
The first thing that started me crying yesterday was seeing a huge mound of earth that was waiting to refill the graves that had been dug.
We went into the chapel and sat in the middle, with me sitting between my 2 friends with their husbands sitting either side. One friend had her arm linked in mine throughout the service.
The service itself was really nice (the priest was prepped with all of her hobbies). Her coffin came into Memory and she went out to You will never walk alone, I think that these must have ben suggestions of the priest, as as far as I know Emma never saw either of the musicals that these songs came from.
On Emmas order of service they got her date of birth wrong - what a thing to get missed when it was being proof checked! I can hear Emma saying bloody cheek they got my birthday wrong ;o).
Next came the burial - after the priest did his bit Emmas Dad said some nice words and then through some white petals in and these were passed around to us to throw some in too. I threw mine in and said goodbye (I didnt really know what else to say to her).
We then got lost finding the pub were her wake was being held, a spread was laid on and tea, coffee & wine.
Happy pancake day everyone ;o)
I had never been to a funeral before and it was really sad that the first one would end up being for my best friend.
When me and my friends would go up to see a show we would always end up getting lost looking for the theatre (despite having a "map" with us) so it was quite fitting that we were driving around the cemetery looking for the chapel...
...she would have been looking down laughing her head off ;o).
The first thing that started me crying yesterday was seeing a huge mound of earth that was waiting to refill the graves that had been dug.
We went into the chapel and sat in the middle, with me sitting between my 2 friends with their husbands sitting either side. One friend had her arm linked in mine throughout the service.
The service itself was really nice (the priest was prepped with all of her hobbies). Her coffin came into Memory and she went out to You will never walk alone, I think that these must have ben suggestions of the priest, as as far as I know Emma never saw either of the musicals that these songs came from.
On Emmas order of service they got her date of birth wrong - what a thing to get missed when it was being proof checked! I can hear Emma saying bloody cheek they got my birthday wrong ;o).
Next came the burial - after the priest did his bit Emmas Dad said some nice words and then through some white petals in and these were passed around to us to throw some in too. I threw mine in and said goodbye (I didnt really know what else to say to her).
We then got lost finding the pub were her wake was being held, a spread was laid on and tea, coffee & wine.
Happy pancake day everyone ;o)
Sunday, 19 February 2012
I am not looking forward to tomorrow
Tomorrow is my friend Emmas funeral :o(
I am really not looking forward to it but at least ma and my friends can say our goodbyes to see her.
We last saw her in the middle of January when she was still in hospital, she was hoping to be let out of hospital later that week back to her Mum & Dads and how I could bring Evie to see her (which was what I wanted to do anyway) I said that I would definitely do that.
As it was she was released on that Friday but I never had the chance for Evie to see her - I still feel incredibly bad about it :o(
If I had known that was the last time I would ever see her again then I wouldnt have wanted to leave until they chucked me out.
On the plus side I have a busy week this week asside from the funeral I am meeting up with the other NCT Mums on Tuesday for coffee & cake and on Thursday one of my friends (that I am going to the fuberal with) is coming over with her husband.
And...
...wait for it...
...Evie said her first word ;o)
I asked her if she had farted and she said "no" I asked James if he had heard it and he couldnt beieve that she hadnt farted ;o)
I am really not looking forward to it but at least ma and my friends can say our goodbyes to see her.
We last saw her in the middle of January when she was still in hospital, she was hoping to be let out of hospital later that week back to her Mum & Dads and how I could bring Evie to see her (which was what I wanted to do anyway) I said that I would definitely do that.
As it was she was released on that Friday but I never had the chance for Evie to see her - I still feel incredibly bad about it :o(
If I had known that was the last time I would ever see her again then I wouldnt have wanted to leave until they chucked me out.
On the plus side I have a busy week this week asside from the funeral I am meeting up with the other NCT Mums on Tuesday for coffee & cake and on Thursday one of my friends (that I am going to the fuberal with) is coming over with her husband.
And...
...wait for it...
...Evie said her first word ;o)
I asked her if she had farted and she said "no" I asked James if he had heard it and he couldnt beieve that she hadnt farted ;o)
Thursday, 16 February 2012
the 8 week check
Evie had her 8 week check yesterday...
First of all we went into see the health visitor where she was weighed - she is now 8lbs 11.5 oz - I was asked if I had any questions and I didnt.
I wrapped her up in the blanket that I had bought with me and waited to be seen by the doctor,she was starting to grizzle because she was getting hungry.
We were then called in to see the doctor and I told him that we were here for her 8 week check and he asked if she was still colicy I said that "touch wood" it had stopped ;o)
He then measured her head (this was when she really started to scream) and he checked that the plates in her skull had fused together properly - yes they had luckily.
We then went into a side room where he did all of the checks that need to be done...
he checked her chest, heart, liver, back, walking reflexes, to see if she can hold her head up, and that the creases in her thighs matched - she was a okay ;o) (and she was still screaming throughout).
The doctor asked if I had any calpol in case she had any reactions to the injections - and I said that I had it in my bag just in case.
He said that if she is not herself then give her calpol every 6 hours until she is better and that it can take 2 or 3 days but if she has a high temperature then to bring her back to the surgery.
We then were called in to see the nurse.
The nurse undid her babygrow and vest and did an injection in each thigh and taped cotton wool over where the injection went in. And yes she still screamed and the nurse even hugged her to make up for it although it was on the aggressive side (if thats possible).
I then booked up her next lot of jabs in 4 weeks time.
I was rather surprised that there was anyone left in the waiting room after Evies little performance.
As we left I siad to Evie "I bet that they will be glad to see the back of us" ;o)
We then went for a coffee to make up for our ordeal and because she was sleeping I made up her feed and gave her some calpol (as I would have expected her to stay awake).
She was really crotchety all evening and not happy at all so I gave her some more calpol before I put her down for the night.
She seems ok now (so I will see how she goes).
I never realised that Evie could scream so loud.
Wednesday, 15 February 2012
innoculations day
Today we have to go for Evies 8 week check up...
I am quite anxious for her :o(
I have even talked through to her what is going to happen while making it sound like an adventure ;o)
We have already bought some Calpol for if she has a temperature after (I must remember to put it in her changing bag).
We have to have 3 separate appointments!
1 for the Health Visitor to weigh her (she has to be kept undressed except for the all important nappy) then she sees the Doctor so he can give her the once over then she sees the nurse for her jabs.
I have been told to bring a blanket with me to keep her warm between the appointments.
LOL she hates it when I get her undressed at the best of times, Im not sure how she is going to feel about being undressed for a whole 40 minutes...
...I just hope that they arent running late like when I had my 6 week check up!
I am quite anxious for her :o(
I have even talked through to her what is going to happen while making it sound like an adventure ;o)
We have already bought some Calpol for if she has a temperature after (I must remember to put it in her changing bag).
We have to have 3 separate appointments!
1 for the Health Visitor to weigh her (she has to be kept undressed except for the all important nappy) then she sees the Doctor so he can give her the once over then she sees the nurse for her jabs.
I have been told to bring a blanket with me to keep her warm between the appointments.
LOL she hates it when I get her undressed at the best of times, Im not sure how she is going to feel about being undressed for a whole 40 minutes...
...I just hope that they arent running late like when I had my 6 week check up!
Tuesday, 14 February 2012
Happy Valentines Day
Happy Valentines Day...
Evie woke up this morning at 5.30 for her feed, so James did her bottle and after she had finished I changed her nappy and then got her off to sleep.
Because it took so long for her to go back to sleep I was no longer tired!
So I got up and left Evie sleeping and when I got downstairs there was an envelope on the doorstep for me ;o)
I opened up the envelope and this was inside it...
...and now I feel bad for not getting James anything because we had already said that we werent going to do anything this year!
Evie woke up this morning at 5.30 for her feed, so James did her bottle and after she had finished I changed her nappy and then got her off to sleep.
Because it took so long for her to go back to sleep I was no longer tired!
So I got up and left Evie sleeping and when I got downstairs there was an envelope on the doorstep for me ;o)
I opened up the envelope and this was inside it...
...and now I feel bad for not getting James anything because we had already said that we werent going to do anything this year!
Sunday, 12 February 2012
minus eight
I knew that it was cold yesterday morning when we got up because the radiators were really hot...
...James had already taken the washing out to put in the tumble dryer and said that it was well cold.
When he started the car (so it was nice and toasty) the car said -6!
When we got into town the thermometer went down to -8...
The last time we were in temperatures that low we were in Prague in January 2005 and it was on our last day before flying back...
...I just remember that it was so cold and I just didnt warm up and I was actually relieved to come home! That was a real first I can tell you ;o)
...James had already taken the washing out to put in the tumble dryer and said that it was well cold.
When he started the car (so it was nice and toasty) the car said -6!
When we got into town the thermometer went down to -8...
The last time we were in temperatures that low we were in Prague in January 2005 and it was on our last day before flying back...
...I just remember that it was so cold and I just didnt warm up and I was actually relieved to come home! That was a real first I can tell you ;o)
Wednesday, 8 February 2012
she wont know her real name
I tend to call Evie "Chicken Evie" shortened to "Chicken" because when she was born she had her legs tucked in like an oven ready chicken ;o)
My concern is is that if I dont start calling her Evie then she will actually think that her name is "Chicken" ;o)
So if you hear me calling her "Chicken" just remind me ;o)
My concern is is that if I dont start calling her Evie then she will actually think that her name is "Chicken" ;o)
So if you hear me calling her "Chicken" just remind me ;o)
Sunday, 5 February 2012
was it just a coincidence
On Friday night I was trying to wind Evie as she has been suffering with colic I was walking around the room rubbing her back.
She was screaming more and more and in a moment of frustration I said out load "Emma do your stuff" and within 30 seconds Evie did a burp and I cried...
...she was still crying but that was because it was close to fer feeding time so I fed her changed her nappy and through my tears I told James that I think that Emma is looking down on me & Evie ;o)
I know that it was probably just a coincidence but it would be nice to think that we do have an angel now watching over us ;o)
She was screaming more and more and in a moment of frustration I said out load "Emma do your stuff" and within 30 seconds Evie did a burp and I cried...
...she was still crying but that was because it was close to fer feeding time so I fed her changed her nappy and through my tears I told James that I think that Emma is looking down on me & Evie ;o)
I know that it was probably just a coincidence but it would be nice to think that we do have an angel now watching over us ;o)
Friday, 3 February 2012
RIP Emma
My best friend who I have known since we were 13 passed away on Wednesday afternoon after losing her battle with cancer :o(
She was diagnosed with breast cancer only in October last year, but when they ran their tests it soon became clear that she also had cancer in her bones too (her Grandad died of that).
Just thinking about Emma has me in tears :o(
Emma was so excited when I told her that I was expecting Evie ;o) I had e-mailed my friends a couple of weeks before my official announcement so as not to overshadow my other friends birthday.
Anyhow she e-mailed me straight back asking for all of the details ;o)
My one regret is is that Emma never got to meet Evie as she was in hospital and they wouldnt allow babies to come visiting (because of the infection risk) and by the time that Emma was back home she was then too ill to have visitors. At least she got to see the photos of her ;o)
Emma is the one with dark hair sitting on the far right hand side.
She was only 42 :o(
I always thought that the four of us would grow old together.
She was diagnosed with breast cancer only in October last year, but when they ran their tests it soon became clear that she also had cancer in her bones too (her Grandad died of that).
Just thinking about Emma has me in tears :o(
Emma was so excited when I told her that I was expecting Evie ;o) I had e-mailed my friends a couple of weeks before my official announcement so as not to overshadow my other friends birthday.
Anyhow she e-mailed me straight back asking for all of the details ;o)
My one regret is is that Emma never got to meet Evie as she was in hospital and they wouldnt allow babies to come visiting (because of the infection risk) and by the time that Emma was back home she was then too ill to have visitors. At least she got to see the photos of her ;o)
Emma is the one with dark hair sitting on the far right hand side.
She was only 42 :o(
I always thought that the four of us would grow old together.
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